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Apparently Hans Christian Andersen had a morbid terror of being buried alive, and would leave a note beside his bed at night that read, "I only appear to be dead."
What a weird dude.
This year I'll be finishing my undergraduate degree, and soon after that I'll probably be launching straight into a Masters in speech pathology. In short, school would like to think it owns my ass.
But that's only part of the reason that I haven't drawn anything in over a year.
I don't get it. I don't like it. Drawing used to be my main de-stressor - I would sit up all night sometimes to do it and go to bed happy at 5 am. I loved to translate everything I read and watched into pictures on paper. But at some point, it started to become a source of stress in itself. It began to take an unreasonable amount of effort to draw anything I was halfway content with - it was like trying to pass a kidney stone through a pencil lead. Especially when I started to commit myself to projects - my God, I should have known myself better and saved everyone a whole lot of trouble. It just got harder and harder.
Eventually I just unplugged my tablet, logged off of DevA, and decided to go fight some battles I might win. It's not as if there weren't other areas of my life that needed the attention.
So. At the moment, that part of me is doing a very, very good impression of being dead.
I won't bury it yet, though. Maybe it's only sleeping.
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Don't ever feel pressured about drawing. In fact, next time you feel the muse calling, I'd recommend drawing something just for you, and not something you've committed to. But don't feel pressured about that either.
Um...lurve.
Captain and I kinda disappeared from the internet ourselves for ages, for many of the same reasons you did, just with writing instead of drawing. And at least for a bit there it was somuchpressuretoperformohgod. Art should never feel like passing a kidney stone!...I mean, unless that's the medium you choose to work in, but still.
(And if any of the kidney stones came from our end of the internet, we're really, really sorry. We don't want to be part of the creativity stifling of someone we think is as brilliant as you are!
There will always be a place for you in the CATverse if you want it. We love you!